I just had my first big swoop of doubt. I was going through some photos from the summer, Robert and William at the pool having swimming lessons. I was thinking about how great that worked: I’d put the twins in their double stroller and we’d sit and watch Robert and William swim, and it was such a nice way to have some summer automatically at the beginning of each day.

I was thinking about how I’d definitely sign them up for lessons again this year. Then I realized that this year, I’ll have a new baby, just a month or two old. The twins will be in their double stroller–and where will the new baby be? In fact, where will the new baby be on any outing? Already I am out of room in the shopping cart.